I Stopped Blogging. Here Is What I Learned:

And  ~*!!poof!!*~  I’m back!

For one year and nine months – I blogged.  Every day.  Boy, let me tell you: I was obsessed.

Not a moment of my life went undocumented.  Hundreds of photographs were produced to illustrate my daily verbal elucidations.  When I wasn’t blogging, I was thinking about blogging.  What would my next post be about?  What can I photograph?  Would this picture make a good topic to write about?  How many likes do I have?  How many more subscribers do I have today?

In a relatively short period of time blogging became my universe.

And then one day – at the height of it all – I stopped.  Just. Like. That.  Like flipping off a light switch.  Like snapping your fingers….done.  You can’t say I “signed off”.  I didn’t say good-bye to my audience.  I didn’t even compose a post to warn my readers I wouldn’t be posting.  I just closed the door and didn’t open it back up….not even a crack.  (I am sure there are blogging experts that will tell me this is a big no-no in the blog-o-sphere.  A sure-fire way to piss off your hard earned reader-ship and sabotage your stats…  *sigh*…)

Why?  Why did I do this????

It has taken me until now – just over one year and nine months later – to figure it out.  I wonder how many other bloggers, past and present, can relate:

  • I was starting to think that I had run out of things to say.
  • I had met (and exceeded) the goals I had set in my mind when I created my blog.
  • My blogging style was starting to change, and I didn’t like it.

But mostly, I was worried that Writing The Girl had become that line in Seinfeld: a show about nothing.  So much random thoughts came through in my posts, I feared I  had created a blog about nothing at all.  Who wants to read a blog that has no focus?  (yes, I realize now how silly that sounds.)

Walking away was so easy!  I don’t even remember making the conscious decision to do it….it just happened.  It was just a matter of not signing into my dashboard one day.  Not composing a post in my head.  Leaving my camera on the shelf.

One day turned into one week….one month…..one year.

You want to know something funny?  I wasn’t posting – but man – blogging never left my mind.  Writing The Girl – my audience and accomplishments – were never far from me.

I thought, a few times, maybe I could start a new blog.  I still had this desire to hit that PUBLISH button.  First, I created a health and fitness blog.  A blog about SOMETHING!  Well, I completed one post….and that was it.  Lost interest.  No time to post.  ZERO inspiration.

Last summer I created yet another blog site – a cooking site this time.   Something else that had a central, singular theme:  food.  Well, I didn’t even complete one post.  Did you know that food blogs are not easy to get right?  Kudos to all food bloggers out there – your talent and commitment  are truly a work of art and a show of passion for that which you love.  My hat goes off to you.  Sincerely.

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Self portrait in my kitchen

Don’t mis-understand me.  Through all this not blogging, and then failing at new blogs, I never stopped writing.  It’s my job to write.  Before I ever started blogging, I had only ever dreamed of pursuing a life-long, and severely closeted, desire to write for a living.  In the year that I was posting daily, I landed a job that made this a reality.  I now work in marketing – I create copy for web pages and display ads.  Heck – I create entire websites!  I design and get to be creative on a daily basis.  My professional life is awesome.  But what do I do when I’m not creating for someone else?

Which brings me to this moment.  Right here.  Right now.

I didn’t blog for the same amount of time that I did blog.  And what did that teach me?  When I blogged everyday, I learned that I could write on command.  As someone who wanted to make a career of it, this was good to know.  When I stopped blogging, writing on command became much bigger creative challenge.

Lastly, I am – at heart – an introvert.  The older I get, the more I realize just how much I prefer to keep to myself.  Blogging everyday forced me to get over my tendency to stay in the shadows.  So when I wasn’t posting and publishing to a massive audience, I easily reverted back into my box.  I even stayed off Facebook for a long time, shortly after I stopped my regular blogging schedule.  I became shy again.

I think I actually became a little depressed too.

Okay, fine – but what did I learn by not blogging?

I learned what I already knew….that blogging didn’t make me a writer.  However, I also learned that having this outlet – this platform to stand upon and ramble to whoever is close by with my thoughts and images, helps me to be a more consistent writer.  Not a better one.

Life is too short to not do what you want.  I want my Writing The  Girl back.

Yes – I am still worried I will run out of things to say.

I have, however, accepted the fact that having the Seinfeld of blogs isn’t bad.  Seinfeld was a pretty good show, wouldn’t you say?

Afterall, blogging about nothing is still something.
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5 Replies to “I Stopped Blogging. Here Is What I Learned:”

  1. I jump in and out of blogging more often than I care to admit, but I always get drawn back in. Like you, I wasn’t satisfied with where my blog was headed, I started new ones and still didn’t feel satisfied, and now I’m back at the beginning: which isn’t entirely a bad thing. There is a learning curve – a hump – we need to get over, in life, in our heads, whatever, in order to chase after out dreams with full speed. Glad to see your hump didn’t stop you. Welcome back!

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